Tuesday, January 1, 2013

Happy New Year's...Again!

She lives...She lives!! Happy New Year's everyone! Some of you may or may not remember spritely little me, but I have, once again, returned from "outside space" to the Blogosphere. I hope this post finds everyone well and well favored. It has been approximately one and a half years since my last post and with good reason: I lost everything in the Fire. What fire you say? Oh, just the Conflagration of Circumstance, you know, the Flames of Remorthia Olilith deep within seething bowels Middle Earth otherwise known as tragedy of the highest degree. Yes, I know, drama. Now you may find a hat shop in my former domain (www.momwearsthehats.com). That is because I released my domain name back into the wild world of DNS to be re-captured by someone who would give it better care and a loving home. Nevertheless, I never really stopped writing I just stopped typing and posting on Blogger and Facebook for a while as I reconstructed my life. Unfortunately, that reconstruction began after my world was demolished. One arrest(not mine), adjudication withheld with a smidgen of probation and community service (still not mine) later, I am a single parent with three boys who had, until this point, never been without both parents in the home and had a stay at home mom for most of their lives. I never finished the Master's program I was in for Educational Technology and I moved to an entirely different state to put the pieces of my life back together. No one wants to really say goodbye to a marriage. That's not why people get married. There are so many freaking disadvantages to divorce: decreased life expectancy, grief, increased likelihood of living in poverty especially if you have the children, stigmas and unfounded fears from married people (that's another post for another day ;-)), However, life goes on. This is not a pity party. This is actually an announcement: 2013 is the beginning of something new and brilliant in my life. I have so much to tell you all and I don't even know where to begin. I'm newly divorced, newly single with benefits, and newly enlightened about the God I serve. I am learning so much about the strength that I didn't know existed within me, and how I needed to tap into this hidden superpower of mine(as my 4 year old would say). I now have the ability to see what is not there and make it happen just because I believe that my God will make it so (faith). I also discovered my Achilles' heels (Heels was not a typo: Let's tell the truth; we all have more than one weakness). In spite of my faults and things, I'm going for my Masters of Fine Arts...somewhere, somehow, but that's not the point: The point of the matter is that after several months of soul searching, why-ing and why-ning about my life, I am no longer living my life for someone else's satisfaction and pleasure. My life is my own canvas to be covered by the Divine paint of God's will embellished with the glitter of my desires and visions. I'm not "doing school" to prove anything to anyone else. I'm not scheduling my life around people and their activities just to keep their emotions at bay. I'm doing this for myself because my God is with me and He loves me so. God really wants to give me the opportunity to shine for Him. I have no New Year's resolution but one: Live for God, Move for God, Breathe for God and glorify Him with my life til I die. That is all...

4 comments:

Wanda said...

Happy New Year CeCe! Pleasure to see you back in the blogosphere. Praise God that you survived the fires of life :)

CeCe Wilson said...

Wanda! Happy New Year to you my friend! Yes, but for the grace of God I would not have survived. It's good to be back ;
:-)

Sandra said...

Nice to see you back, Chanisha.

CeCe Wilson said...

Thanks Sandra! Sometimes it takes a minute...

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